Dear Lusi-Sprites. I write this article after sleeping for 13 hours after having been awake for nearly 30. This is the sort of fucked-up journey my body thinks is fun to send me on from time to time. I think back on my fortnight of insomnia and I realize that my pattern of gaming is a little bizarre.
I take my PSP to the toilet to try and cram in hours of either attempting to complete games I have not yet quite completed (Lunar, Final Fantasy VI), or attempting to get my yearly dose of nostalgia for old favourites (Final Fantasy IX, Final Fantasy VII). I find myself sitting on the can for twenty minutes despite only needing to be there for twenty seconds.
It makes me wonder: Why not just take twenty minutes out of my day to dedicate to guilt-free handheld gaming?
Also included in the past fortnight are my attempts to get through the two unfinished RPGs that I have found compelling so far this year, Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning and Tales of Graces f. The former I have not played once this month, and the latter I only find myself playing if I have given up on the day and climb into bed a few hours earlier than I normally might.
Why not let gaming be a regular guilt-free activity?
It would appear that I have reached that awful stage of my life when my subconscious is telling me I do not have time for gaming. It is utter bullshit, of course. Gaming is the activity that drives my passion. Not just to create my own game, but to inspire me to write music, to pursue other creative passions, and to share discussion with fellow gamers.
Gaming is rarely a waste of time for those of us who have the medium in our blood. All things in moderation, yes, but that also means that we should never cut out the activity entirely either.
This is a short article, and one without much point because I need to jet off to work. But I suppose at its core, it is a re-commitment to my passion. Yes, it might be bad to game to the point when I am not eating or working on LFoPD, but it is almost worse to not game to the point when I can hardly remember the last meaningful session I had with one.
What about you, Lusi-Sprites? Are you also crotchety about getting older and having responsibility?